be amazed.

"as i started looking, i found more and more."

-valerie steele

i have found a new love. jazz. in high school my voice teacher gave me a little song to sing but i didn't sing it like a jazz song. still, i loved the song and felt like when i sang it i produced a sound that i liked. this summer i started with a new teacher, lindsey partridge (love her) and one of her specialties is jazz. i decided i wanted her help with jazz. no more classical arias or broadway hits for me right now. she told me after school just started that i would be trying out for jazz voices. i looked into it and said no way. she said it'll be a good audition experience, it'll get your name out there and it will just be good. i've been trying to do different things more often and with less hesitation. so i did it. i haven't been well vocally but by some miracle i still made it in. i'm so glad i did. it has been a blast so far and i definitely feel so much joy while singing jazz. it's 180 degrees different than the choirs i've been in previously. and i;m so glad it is. as alan matthews my director says, the sound starts in your toes. it's more fun that way, give it a try. 

be yourself.

"simply the thing that i am shall make me live."
-william shakespeare

my birthday was in september and for the last few years i've had the tradition to go to a concert on or around my birthday. this has only been practiced for the last five birthdays of mine but it's a tradition i plan to continue. i was getting worried about going to one this year because the only people that we're coming close enough to my birthday were t swift and rascal flatts. like them both (though i really don't choose to listen to either of them on a regular basis), and i definitely didn't want to spend $100+ on a ticket. heavenly father really does care about us, even in the slightly unspiritual things...my friend alan day gave me a call and told me that the rocket summer was doing a free show at utah state september 3rd. one of my favorite bands-check. near my birthday-check. free-check. i was stoked. before the concert alan suggested that we go fly kites on antelope island. i didn't even know antelope island existed. it was very pretty though and simply fun. i hadn't flown a kite in years. i brought ash along and she was tearing it up doing two kites at once. actually not really but it looked like it in the picture. 

oops sorry for editing only this pic

after antelope island we headed to logan to camp out front row for the concert. we waited patiently through the openers (one actually wasn't too bad. ash crushed on one of them.) and finally bryce had his turn. within the first 30 seconds of him being on stage the crowd had turned into the worst can of sardines i had ever experienced. i was getting so worried for ash because even i couldn't handle it. this was ashlee's first concert by the way. so after throwing some elbows and yelling at a few huge guys that didn't even look like fans of the rocket summer, i turned to the guys we were with to tell them we needed to get out. as soon as i look at ash i heard, "i think i'm going to pass ouu...." and she was in my arms. i started freaking out, yelling at everyone, trying to get ash on top of everyone so they'd crowd surf her to the "security guards" in front. i use the term security guards with caution because they were really student government people from usu. i tried telling them during the first song that they needed to do something about the moshing but of course they were just jammin out to the music. anyways, i follow immediately after ashlee by clumsily climbing over the front rail looking like a mad woman. i was bawling, ash was barely conscious, but she was getting taken care of. we were in the back tent for a good 3/4 of the show. after weeks of preparation of ashlee and i listening to his new album and we were listening from back stage. but really it was not a big deal and it was quite fun once ash was feeling better. we even met some of the band that was playing with him that night. we were determined to meet bryce and felt like we had a good enough reason to. so we stayed after the concert (found ashlee's shoe that had fallen off during the incident) and waited semi patiently until bryce would see us. after he greeted back stage pass people he came out to us and seriously talked to us for a good five minutes. he said he remembered us (probably cause i was screaming so loud he could even hear). he signed ashlee's shoe and my new rocket summer shirt. you can see in the pictures that he was just as stoked to see us...well i actually don't know what his face is doing in the second one. but he was so real to us and was so humble and sincere. i love his music and think he's a talented musician but i also admire him for having clean uplifting lyrics and for being so real, even though he is a famous rock star. thanks ash, bradyn, alan, and especially bryce avary for a memorable 22nd birthday concert!

my sister was so sweet to me on my actual birthday. She was going to be busy and i wasn't going to be able to see her and i kept giving her crap about it being the first birthday in three years that i've been home for...i shouldn't have made her feel guilty because she went above and beyond. so sweet.
the birthday began with a surprise kidnapping to denny's for a midnight birthday snack. i had been asleep for one hour but i felt like it was already six am. i was put in a trunk, yes a trunk and driven to denny's. when we got there i thought it would just be ash, eric, kev, and ali (those who were the actual kidnappers) who would be there. all of the sudden mich and mick drive past, then jeremy, and as we were walking in andrea and rachel were just sitting on a bench by the door! i'm so blessed, seriously. my friends are the best. it got even better when winston, paul, colton, and their friends came to join us. such a fun time with them. i went back to bed for three hours, got up for class and enjoyed breakfast cereal with my family. rachel stayed in provo long enough to indulge in jdawgs (her first time) for lunch. while i was at school my adorable little sister decorated the house and my car. i can't stress how nice she is to me. without having time for my stomach to empty i headed to brick oven for dinner with my parents and the hirschi family. then kaelo and i (the september birthday girls), my mom, and eric headed to the drowsy chaperone at the hale. it was such a funny show. i was laughing all night. then eric and i went on a full moon ride up sundance with some of his friends. it's not funny how much i love the moon. it was a great birthday and i'm so grateful to my friends and family for being so wonderful to me.

be constructive.

"clear your mind of can't."
-samuel johnson


school has been rough this semester. it has just been rough. i haven't gotten on top of things and i just finished the  fourth week of the semester.  i feel like i'm at least three things away from getting my to do list finished at all times. my choir director alan matthews shared a quote by elder oaks last week that really inspired me to make a better effort and allow the lord to help me be the student i want to be and know that i can be-if i put forth the effort. elder oaks said, "when we have a vision of what we can become, our desire and our power to act increase enormously." the last few days i've worked on getting a vision of what kind of student i can become. i know with the lord's help my desire to be abetter student will increase and all of my can'ts can be cleared from my mind. 

be alive.

"the purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience." -eleanor roosevelt


soooo my summer has been very busy. i have let my blog go into hibernation for the last few months but i am now ready to start again and work on my goal to blog at least once a week. now begins the catch up...i apologize.
one of my very best friends decided to tie the knot with her perfect match on june 28th, in the oquirrh mountain temple. emmy and jeff made one of the most important decisions that they will ever make and i know that it was the right one. they both looked so indescribably happy. em looked gorgeous. there was a glow about her and i couldn't help but be so happy for her. after months of preparation and hard work they finally made it to the big day and everything looked perfect. the only thing that wasn't perfect was that i forgot my camera...so i will have to borrow someone else's photos. oops.

another one of my very best friends also took the plunge and got married for time and all eternity this summer. on august 19th michelle and mick tied the knot in the salt lake temple. i had the privilege to help rachel with the flowers for the wedding. she is a wonderful florist designer and did a fantastic job. the thursday before we had a great time invading the maw basement/ping pong table arranging center pieces, corsages, boutonniers, etc. the reception was held at the maws so it was really fun to see everything come together. it was a beautiful celebration and m & m couldn't have looked happier. i was a mess and cried a river the whole night but i really was so happy for them. 

karissa bosco has been called to serve as a missionary for the church of jesus christ of latter-day saints in the argentina cordoba mission. well she's been more than just called-she's gone. ka went into the mtc this last wednesday in the early afternoon. i'm going to miss her so much but i also know she is doing exactly what the lord wants her to be doing. she is going to be such an amazing missionary. i admire her strength, courage, and desire to serve and grow by serving a mission for the next 18 months. we had a few goodbye get togethers for her and it was really fun to see so much of her the last few months. i'm praying for you sister bosco!

my best friends and i have been through so much together. we've liked boys from different groups of friends, we've liked boys from the same group of friends, we were on different sports teams, went to different colleges, some got married at different times, and yet we still get together and catch up on each others lives. i'm so blessed to have them all in my life and have their examples to look to. i love each one of 'em so much. here's to six years of friendship.

be excited.

"the minute you begin to do what you really want to do, it's really a different kind of life." 

-buckminster fuller

last thursday completed the whitakers journey at provo high school. ashlee marie graduated with high honors,  received a 4.0 her whole senior year, and she was the last of eight whitakers to have attended provo high school. 

i'm so proud of her and loved being there for part of her special day. after the ceremony we went to rachels house and had a fun family party filled with panda express (ash's favorite), presents and college survival tips. we were all so exhausted come night time but ash was a trooper and still made it to some of her senior all night party. 

the next morning i forced her to rise bright and early so we could go to st george for a little weekend getaway. i drove (with a little too much mt dew to help me stay awake) while ash slept and we eventually made it to st george. i experienced for the first time checking into a hotel by myself-so adult like. we were only able to stay through saturday so we made the most of our time and immediately started laying out. we rented bikes for a day (the only ones left were way too big for us. oh well, it was fun anyway) and had a blast riding around in the perfect 88 degree weather. lunch was a disaster and we were not satisfied with jimmy johns sandwiches so we got cafe rio for dinner. after we gave our tummies a rest we went to dixie rock, and tried out nielsen's frozen custard. we were exhausted once again so we retired fairly early and fell asleep while watching legally blonde. on saturday we went to breakfast, checked out of our hotel, still stayed and swam/laid out, turned our bikes back in, changed from swimsuits into sunday clothes in the car so we could do baptisms at the temple and visited with my friend cody who i haven't seen for almost a year. i ate too much (like i usually do), got sunburned (like i usually do), and loved spending time with my little sister (like i always do). i took the whole week off of work and exercise so now it's time to get back in the routine of things. 

i love you little sister. i'm excited for you to start this stage of your life and i know you will make the most of it!

be there.

"god calls you to the place where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet." 

frederick buechner

i need something. i don't know what but i feel like right now something is missing. i can think of a number of things that i think are missing but that might not be what god knows is missing. he knows what i need right now and in his time he will send them my way. until then i'll stick around, live the way i know i should, and hope this feeling of not being whole will soon be gone. 

be brave.

"most of our obstacles would melt away if instead of cowering before them, we should make up our minds to walk boldly through them." -orison swett marden


for some reason i decided to sign up for a half marathon. those of you who know me know that i'm not a runner. i don't love it, i'm not good at it and i usually just don't do it. completing a half marathon has been on my mind though and it quickly made it on my list of things to do. i thought that after training for a few months it would be easy and i would be ready. turns out trying to train while working two jobs and going to school was a little harder than i thought. i had only run up to six miles and barely ran three miles, three times a week. i still wanted to do it and felt like if i didn't follow through with it i wouldn't be this close again for a long time. at 8:00 am on may 7, 2011 i began the run in downtown provo with my one of my best friends, her sister, and her brother in law. i felt ok for a while but then i felt like i was going to pass out and didn't feel like i could go on. (having my ipod die by mile 3 didn't help either...) but for whatever reason i was able to keep up with mich and whit and we all finished together- in 2 hours and 12 minutes! that was much faster than i thought and i'm proud of us. the feeling of finishing and having run basically all of it was a great feeling and i really did feel like i accomplished something big. it's been a few days and i'm still sore and i still have a stomach ache from all the chocolate milk i drank after. but it was worth it. half marathon, check.