be hopeful.

"i haven't a clue as to how my story will end. but that's all right. when you set out on a journey and night covers the road, that's when you discover the stars." -nancy willard

life throws a mean curve ball at times. things happen that aren't in the plan and you just need to deal with it and go on. easier said than done? i think so. for some reason i have been dreading this post. ok i know the reason. but i still cant find the right words for it. a picture is worth a thousand words so i'll post some of those. i had a wonderful time with derek davis. it was so wonderful for a little while that it almost feels like it was a dream. ah see here i go... i just spent ten minutes trying to think about what to say next. words are too hard to find. eh, maybe i'll stick to  borrowing someone else's words to try and explain this curve ball that came at me. 

"the true meaning of being alive is not just to feel happy, but to experience the full range of human emotions." -deci and flaste

"adamantine: utterly unyielding or firm in attitude or opinion." -dictionary

"but i would rather feel the sting, than never to have felt a thing." -ingrid michaelson

"the most important principle of timing is to take the long view. mortality is just a small slice of eternity, but how we conduct ourselves here--what we become by our actions and desires...will shape our destiny for all eternity. anchor your life to eternal principles, and act upon those principles whatever the circumstances and whatever the actions of others. then you can await to the lord's timing and be sure of the outcome in eternity." -dallin h oaks.

i tell myself that it is ok to just be. well right now i don't know if that is enough. right now i know i need to be more than just present in the world. so i'm choosing to just be hopeful. hopeful for the future and the new "stars" that i will discover.